I wrote about this a few years ago and I still believe that everyone comes to a place in their lives of breaking! A place where they question themselves, who they are, who they want to become even who they think that they should be. It could just be me, questioning everything about ME. It could just be me who wonders if I am doing and being what was planned for me to do and be. If I can be naked, completely transparent for a moment, share my raw emotions, these last years have been challenging as hell to say the least. A break up, breakdown, soft tissue break and then there was the self diagnosed reality check, that my plans didn’t go as planned. So my creative flow was interrupted, I became stagnant, frustrated even angry as I scramble to try and figure things out. In the middle of chaos, confusion, stress, tension and uncertainty I had to find the very thing to cling to create my joy, my peace, my strength and even MY clarity. I realize that I NEEDED a moment.
I just need to take a moment to have a moment, because the moment is right here staring me in the face. While my outside world is beautiful, within my four walls however at one point became a very dark place. I admit to it all, I was guilty to all of Yep, there was a time I couldn’t keep it together even if I wanted. I was slipping fast with every little bit. I would’ve cried but the SHIFT had a very tight grip, only letting out a tear drop here or a tear drop there but oh did SHIFT give me a quiver in my lip.
I remember asking myself, How did I get here? Had I asked for IT was because of my dreams of Passionately pursuing LOVE of all things Who told me that I was cupid, being single and all? God called my number so I had to answer the call. So here I am OPEN, yet once again on the brink of something amazing, if I could just hang in. SHIFT had a hold on me…It was an uncomfortable place, sometimes we are forced to STOP and be still to absorb the bitter taste, You can find yourself in IT and it’s as thick as it’s ever been but you have to hold on to FAITH because sometimes that’s all we have within SHIFT usually happens without permission, understand it, be present in it! Be humble during this transition of submission.
The miracle of breaking is this… Sometimes we have to surrender to this place of what we think is BREAKING with the understanding that it’s not really about us at all and if we let it… IF WE truly allow the Breaking to occur we will find at the very bottom of our breaking that we are in fact BECOMING!
A’Darah had the amazing idea to create The Breaking Conference and I’m so grateful to be a part of this amazing event and we will hope that you will join us. If you haven’t purchased your ticket please do so. You won’t regret it, not one bit!
Yanni Brown a ChiCity born, Certified Relationship & Intimacy Educator and if you asked “What’s Love Got to Do With It” she would answer without hesitation “Absolutely Everything.”